I wanna go back to Egypt

Isn’t it tragic how attractive old sin can look when times are tough under our new master?  Going “back to Egypt” seems like the easy path.   The promised land seems far away.  Is it worth it?  Of course!  We were held captive in the land of sin.  God sent his son deep into enemy territory, even to the gates of hell, to rescue us.   I have been rescued, but it is so hard to believe.  So many days I find myself living like I am still a captive, shuffling along like I still have shackles on my feet.  As I remember the pain of those chains, I tend to lash out at those around me.  It is especially humbling to recognize that I am unable to live as a free man without being totally dependent on my new master.

I pray.

I wanna go back to Egypt

Really I just want to go back to school.  As Keith Green wrote, it is warm and secure.  School is not really a place of captivity for me, I just feel like I need to add some more education to the tools I already have.  I would like to be more usefull, or maybe used more.  I know that if I wish to be used more, I must make myself more available.  I have been practicing saying,  “I can do that.”  Many opportunities still go past without me offering myself, but it is something I grow towards.