Drowsy, Divorced and a little Depressed

Over at The Way of the Broken Heart,  he writes about “purpose-less living.”  This resonates deeply within me.  I have lived many purpose-less years.  I have been remembering my purpose, but on Monday morning, drowsy, divorced and a little depressed, it is hard to see it.  There is also a flip side of this for me.  I sometimes fear purpose, fear The Big Plan.  I do not always have the faith to step out on the invisible bridge that is God’s plan for my life, and I rarely feel like I have the confidence to walk boldly across.

The Fear of Isaac

In Genesis, when Jacob has finished his time with Laban and is returning to his homeland, Laban pursues him. In the midst of their conversation, Jacob refers to the Lord as the “Fear of Isaac.” A few verses later, he takes an oath in the name of the “Fear of his father Isaac.” There is no other place where God is referred to in this way. thinking about it, I can only imagine what Isaac’s relationship with the Lord must have been like, for his children to refer to it in this way.

My thought is that Isaac never really got over almost being sacrificed as a child. God had asked for his life and only relented as the knife was raised. Isaac may have taken this to heart and lived in fear of the Lord, of what the Lord might ask of him all his days. If he understood why the Lord had done this, it may have kept him from holding anything or anyone too tightly. Being human, there is a good chance he overcompensated and had a tough time in relationship with his sons. Do we see the consequences in his son’s lives? Is it reflected in their relationship with their mother or wives?