Things move so slowly near the end. This must be what it feels like to spiral down into a black hole. We seem to be in agreement about our parenting plan and division of assets. Her lawyer is meeting with her tomorrow to make sure that she understands what she has agreed to. Assuming that does not raise any red flags, my lawyer will begin drawing up final papers for us to sign. The separation of bank accounts has already begun. The list of stuff in the house that goes and stays is already being worked on. And Christmas is coming.
I wish I could read the kids minds. It has been so many months since my wife announced that she was divorcing me, I wonder what they think? The oldest one may be somewhat aware of how long a process divorce can be, but the other three may have no idea. I know it will be a shock to all of them when my wife tells them that she will be moving out. I have done what I can to make sure that my wife has what she needs and even most of what she wants. In some weird way it is a way for me to show love to her.
I begin to wonder what it will be like to have a closet to myself. Will I rearrange the bedroom? How much of the clutter of our lives will follow my wife? I will never be able to get the car in the garage, but just maybe I will be able to get the nose in out of the rain. There is a certain amount of anticipation in all this dread.
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